Exhausted!!!

Monday was the marketing management assignment due date.. I was so damn exhausted.. I didnt sleep for 2-3 whole days just to finished my whole assignment.. All in all, we only had a week to complete the whole report plus the interview.. Freaking tiring.. I couldn't finished till like 3.30p.m and i rushed to uni to photostat another copy.. When i reached uni, I realize that I forgot to print the cover page.. Stupid of me.. Thank god i bought my laptop to uni that day, so I quickly type the cover page and safe it into my thumb drive then i ran all the way to UOA to print the cover page, rushed back to Wisma Help and then rushed down to Level 1 to print out another copy, and also binding.. There was so many people.. I was like die lah die lah.. When I actually submitted the report, it was like 4.45 pm..

Luckily my friends help me compile and wrote the particulars for me.. I was so tired and weak even before I submitted my assignment. Thank god, I still had enough strength to rush through all this first.. After I submitted the report, i totally knock off.. I was trying to sleep in uni while waiting for my friend to finish class to fetch me back. However, after abt 15 minutes, I started getting very sick, and to make matter waste, I started having difficulties breathing again.. Yes, I had another relapse on Monday.. Stupid right.. Issshhh.. It take so long to go back to normal.. By the time I got back to normal, I was so tired.. So much energy is wasted.. Yes, is the same sickness that I had suffer last term.. I know I had to have enough rest, but then if you have so little time to finish your assignment, u really don't have choice but to force yourself.. So after, when I was feeling better, my friend took me home.. After reaching home, I took a quick shower and I went straight to bed.. I didn't even go to class the next day..


I was feeling very uncomfortable when I started having problem breathing.. I feel cold and I totally didn't have the energy to talk.. Thank god, am feeling much better now while typing this post.. although I still feel tired and still a bit of pain, but it was much better.. Haha..Yeap, my parents didn't know about it, so don't even mention about it to anyone k..

However due to all the challengers faced during this assignment, I am really glad that I had been able to pull it off.. Even if I don't know whether I will do well or not, it all depends on the lecturer.. But I know I had already tried my best de.. I have another assignment due then it will be exams de.. I am so not prepared.. Hahaha.. Pray hard for me ya... and Pray hard that I wont get another relapse again.. I don't want to retake the whole term again...


This Friday, our group will be the first group to present.. arghhh.. Hope everything goes on smoothly.. lol.. But am seriously glad that this assignment is done de.. 1 and the half weeks to finish the assignment.. I still can't believe it.. Am very lucky to get a interview done early.. Thanks Jeffral..

No matter how sick I get, I'll still make sure I'll finished this term.. There is no way, am going to drop this term anymore since it's almost completed.. I'll definitely pull through.. Unless something beyond my control lah.. But no worries.. I will take care of myself and try to avoid another relapse.. Pray hard for me ya.. Hehehe


Thanks guys.. Will update again later or tomorrow... Hehe..

What is happening to me???

I really don't know what happened to me.. I feel so depressed and sick.. Is only been 4th week and I have been feeling depressed and moody.. I don't know what is going on with me.. Am I sick till I feel my body is tired or have I been going through all the suffering of the chinese medical treatment and also getting sick at the same time.. I really don't know.. Or I just feel like things are going against me.. Or am I just feeling lonely staying alone here.. Sometimes when things don't go well, I really hope someone is there for me.. I hope my parents are in KL with me.. I hope I can stay calm and be independent.. But, I don't know why am I feeling so depressed and lonely.. I know I know.. I shouldn't be feeling this way, but I really can't help it.. My body is weak, I don't have appetite to eat, my throat is so painful, I have bad headache and I CANT SLEEP!!! Besides all this, I need to act ok in uni, I need to attend classes even though am sick, and every week, there are so many discussion and work to do.. I don't know why, but I hardly get depression, and if i do, I usually able to go through it.. because I have close friends around me.. But I feel this time is worst then what happen last time.. I don't know why and what happened to me.. I just can't wait for the time I graduate.. am mentally and psychically tired... my body is not the same like last time.. The doctor telling me I need plenty of rest, but yet, either I cant sleep or I have work to do.. Every week, tutorial presentation with groups are already making me busy.. Although usually I wont complaint about it and I usually able to cope, but I don't know why am complaining now.. On conclusion, I know am just depressed..

I HAVE TO BRING MYSELF UP!!!! But sometimes, I just want to have a peace of mind, without ppl finding fault or finding ways to hurt you... I guess am feeling this way cos things haven't been going well for me since I got sick.. But no matter how I feel now, I hope I will be ok soon.. It might takes few days or a week plus.. But I can't let it go longer than that.. I mentally must be strong, is only 1 year more.. and time passes very fast, so I can do it.. and I will do it, no matter what it takes.. but my health will come first before anything elsee..

To those who is reading this, pls keep this confidential. I don't want anyone of my aunties, uncles, parents to know how am feeling now..

I wasn't suppose to post about it, but I just want to try whether if I type how I feel here, I might feel better... Anyways, this blog is for me to type all my emotions, my ups and downs in life and so on..

That's it for now.. Thank you to those who have been with me since I feel depressed and lonely..

Love you all...