RIP Ahkong

I miss you Ahkong.. My beloved grandpa had just passed away on Monday 26/5/2008 at 8.53pm. When I heard the news on that day, I was so shocked. I thought I heard it all wrong.. I was hopping that it was not true. However, it was the real fact that my grandpa have passed away. I couldn't stop crying when I got to know about it. I was totally in a daze and I didn't know what to do. After all these years, my grandpa who had been there for me since my childhood days where I usually stay there when my parents are not at home had passed away. He took us out, took us to the beach, took us to 'korek' siput and so many other memories that he had spent with us.. It will always be in my heart. I know he was sick last year, I was there in the hospital, I know he was already weak, but he never complaints. I really miss him.. I also really miss my grandma who had passed away when I was in form 4. They were both always there for me.. Cooked nice and yummy food, assam prawn, assam fish and other good food. We always stay over their place and talk and play with my cousins and both my grandparents. Now both of them had passed away. Am glad that my grandma and grandpa both passed away peacefully.

I only saw my grandpa 1 week ago before he passed away. My last words to him was I'll see you after my exam when am back in Penang. Unfortunately, that was the last time I got to see him. However, am really lucky that I went back last week to see him. He was still ok and he said that he was feeling much better compared to last time.. Life is so unpredictable.

Therefore, on Monday, when I heard the news, my aunt ask me whether I wanted to go back coz they will be driving back to Penang. I know I was having exams in 3 days time, and I wasn't even prepared.. However, nothing could have stop me, even my exam. I told her and my parents that I will go back and pay my last respect to him. So after the news, I started crying till my aunt came to fetch me back to Penang. We left at 12 am plus and reached at 4 am. The next day we were all in the funeral parlor till late night and the next day was already the funeral. I couldn't get myself to study or even do anything else. I was trying to be strong and stop crying during the funeral on Wednesday, but I couldn't. When I got home to KL on that night itself and the next day which was Thursday I had exam in the morning, I tried my best to study, but it was hard to concentrate. I know that my grandpa passed away peacefully and I should be happy for him, but I guess is still hard to forget about it..

During the exam, I couldn't do.. One word had affected me badly.. I thought I could stay strong and go do my exam, but I just couldn't. The survey question ask something about relative passed away.. something like that, and that sentence really got me badly affected.. I couldn't think.. I was feeling sad.. I couldn't even remember what I studied. However, I tried my best to still stay in the exam hall and write whatever I can remember which is not much.. I came out from the exam hall feeling emotionally down.. However, even though I already took the fact that my grandpa is gone and he died peacefully and I was happy for him, it still takes time to heal the pain.. and am sure it will..am glad that you won't need to suffer with the pain you have suffered all these while and we all also know that you are in a better place now..

Ahkong, I miss you a lot and I love you lots.. But I will take care of myself. Rest in peace Ahkong..

Before I stop this post, here is a photo of my grandpa..

In remembrance of my beloved grandpa



Goodbye my dear Ahkong... We all really miss you!!!

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Thank you to all my friends who had been there during this difficult moment in my life. Thank you so much to my admin staffs Kak Les, Kak Aini, Maliga, Sara, E-werne and also my Lecturers from HELP. Thank you to Kak Les for her advice and being there for me. Thank you Kak Aini for being there for me and making sure I was ok after my exam. Thank you Ieta, for your sms and also being worry about me. Thank you Suet Li for being there for me and talking and calling me when I was in Penang. Thank you Wye Ling, my best friend from school for making sure I was Ok. Thank you to my group members Siew Mei and Yik Fan. Thanks Siew Mei for helping me in whatever you can in my studies for my exam and your advice. Thank you Yik Fan for your sms. Thank you Adrian. Thank you to Sue for calling me. Thank you Sher lin for being there for me even you are in New Zealand. Even though I only know them for a short time, they were always there for me. Thank you to the others (Serene, Doreen, Charlie and etc, u know who u guys are) who had sms and msn me when they knew about it. I didn't let many know about it when I received the news about it. Thank you so much for all our condolences and being there for me.. Thank you so much all of you.. I really appreciate it a lot.

Sorry if i miss out some of you..

Thank You for the Friendship!!!